Gateway

Bregno, Andrea 1480's GatewayI wake up each day with a sigh of relief and a prayer of thanks in my heart.  My mind always contains a long list of desires that I hope to accomplish in the blessing of another day here on Earth.  Some days, I am so overwhelmed by the possibilities that I lay quietly and cry.  The powerful feeling of hope, brought on by the opportunity for another chance to succeed, is the fuel that lights my fire.  My gateway to life is open and all I have to do is get out of bed to receive it.

As soon as my feet hit the ground, I am on the go.  Raising my children is an adventure in it’s self.  My life of details is one that, in the moment seems impossible at times, but in the end I know I will never regret.  My girls rock my world and I am forever changed for the better because I am their mother.

My work is diverse and something I love…LOVE…to do!  I joke that I will work all of my days.  Why would I retire when I am having so much fun?  I am challenged every day and have the opportunity to meet people, build relationships and solve problems.  Sales has always been my niche and I love that I am able to do it and do it well.  My desire to help my clients is what funds my passions…ITALY included!

My friends are the best!  The people that love me for who I am, no matter what crazy ideas I come up with.  The people that set out on a series of adventures because they care too much for me to allow me to do it alone.  The people who pray for me at night because they know I am lonely at times and want the best for me.  I couldn’t do it without a little help from my friends.

My gateway to life, handed to me by God, is something so precious and fragile that I want to hold onto it forever.  I am not done yet!  I still have too many things that I want to do.  I have too much love to share, too many adventures to be had and too many people to lift up.  I want to be hugely successful in this life, so I can giveback some of the light that fills my heart and spirit, allowing others to do and feel the same.

The gateway to heaven is right here on Earth.  I pray to stay and walk through the gateway of opportunity and do what is right and good.  I have 299 days to go until 40 years old; 6 decades, 9 months, 3 weeks and 5 days until 100 years old.  I better keep busy, getting busy.  I hope the same for you.  xo

 

 

 

 

Forgiveness

Riley's Prize Winning Art
I had to forgive myself today.  I have been buried with work the past few days, my daily chores and countless hours of volunteering in my community trying to support my local PTA and RELAY FOR LIFE.  While these are all good things for me to be doing, I am exhausted.  It was one o’clock in the morning when I decided to go to bed instead of writing my blog.  Once in bed, the wind howled all night long and 
tossed and turned.  I hate when I let myself down.

Today was another day like the day before.  I worked and worked until I found out that I had an engagement that I had to attend this evening.  I did not get everything on my TO DO LIST completed and was feeling angry at myself for another day of personal disappointment.  I missed my language lesson, yet again.  I did not review my Italian map to help plot my course.  I did not complete my database for the upcoming community event that I am helping put on.  I did not even do the breakfast dishes or dust, as I had planned, or catch up on my blog for DAY 468.

Feeling defeated and incompetent, I heading to the event that was waiting for me.  For someone who is joyful most of my days, I was feeling and acting closer to cranky than happy.  As I approached the event, I saw her and everything changed.

I suddenly forgave myself for all of my shortcomings.  I was suddenly filled with joy and the idea that there is so much hope in the world.  My youngest daughter was waiting to show me her artwork that had been picked to be displayed at one of our local school’s art shows.  Her kind face and her presence, offered me forgiveness and I am changed forever.

As if some kind of gift from the heaven’s, my daughter took First Place in her category.  She will get to go to Division Finals and may have a chance of making it to State.  Whether she wins or not, does not matter.  What matters is that she tried.  She put art into the world, not to win, but because she loves it and because of that she will always be a winner.

Here’s to another day of opportunities to be ourselves and ultimate forgiveness for doing so!