It’s officially, official! I made the choice yesterday to go to Italy and start a blog to document my process of pulling off such an adventure. Once I actually published, posted and tweeted my intentions, I realized I may be setting myself up for public failure and the anguish that goes along with that, all in the eyes of the “all seeing” internet and social media. This is not my first attempt at publicly going after a pie in the sky dream of mine and I can’t help joining a few of my friends and family members in asking myself, “Why did I make the choice to do this?”
I knew first thing this morning that I may be in over my head, yet again. I am very public with my passions. I share my hopes and dreams in all that I do. I feel for my dear friends at church and on the PTA, and my family that has to live out these endless adventures with me and unfortunately, endure some of my failures along the way. I am worried that this might become another epic, public failure but for some strange reason, I don’t care.
I know that I am in over my head. I know that I have a long haul ahead of me. I know that I may embarrass myself in the process but I am strangely, excited about it! Could the reason why I am not so concerned about what everyone is thinking about me be because I’m almost 40 years old? Whatever the reason, I am relieved that I don’t care what people may think of me. I am thankful that I get to document who I am and why I am, and how this process is going to help me focus on accomplishing my hopes and dreams.
488 days and counting. I think I can, I think I can.
Whatever happens, I know that I am going to give this my all. My research has begun, a plan is beginning to come together, language lessons will begin in a few weeks and I am excited to share every exciting detail with the world because I can.